Hello ,

Before I start, I realised that my first 2 Blogs hadn’t been read for one reason or another. As I wanted this to be a journey of how I came to meet and work with Tamsen, how we started Me, Myself and I Ltd, the training of S.E.L.F.

Below is something I replied to on Facebook from a post Tamsen had put up

Hello Tamsen.

Thank you so much for the training you gave me the other week……and you said it was about half everyone else will get on the course! I have been doing the 4 steps, remembered my inner Queen and empowering myself, bringing it beck to S.E.L.F.

A couple of things have happened this last week. Tuesday morning I was I was having a stomp about and just shouted out “that’s it, enough of having no money, I need some money coming in”! That afternoon while traveling up to Oxford for my daughter-in-laws graduation, I had a phone call. Would I be able to help a family in a village nearby, they were looking for someone for 6 to 8 hours a week? Hummm Yes! They wasn’t to meet me as soon as possible, Friday morning I went to see them. Bless them, they are going through it a bit, I start Tuesday coming and then another day later in the week. Magic! Thank you very much. Since then, I’ve had been asked to help if I had the time free, 1 was an evening helping my sister who was doing some outside catering, the other was a lady I help now and again. Maybe I should shout more often!

Then yesterday, I volunteered to help set up a food festival in Bovey Tracey……rather an early start, needed to be there by 6.45am. All was fine, the stall holders started to arrive from 8am, I was asked to organise the cars & vans to their parking area to begone by 9am, but also other things were being set up and the road to go down to their parking area was getting narrower and narrower. So, trying to be friendly and give them so notice that they had to be gone, I spoke to a lady who was 3 other people, I had seen her drive a large van behind a burger van. She was holding up some others being able to get pasted her van. So I said to her, that in the next 5 mins she would have to move her van as she was going to get blocked in and not going to be able to get down the road she needed to with the van could she take everything she needed out of the van, did she need some help to do so?. Oh my good Lord! I get she was stressed, but no need to be So very rude! The old me would have done 1 of 2 things. 1) say nothing, take it and walk away OR 2) snap back…..not very grown up! I just looked at her…..with others watching and listening to what was going on!……I said calmly “I’m sorry, I’m not excepting that behaviour, please stop it, I’m not having it, we are all busy” She stomped off, the people she was with told her she was out of order, there was a couple of others helping there, one chap said ‘well done, you where almost….regal in your behaviour and actions’! My inner Queen stepped in, I so love her!!

That was a couple of days ago I wrote that. I have been thinking of the training, the 4 steps.

We all have a ‘past’ sometimes is positive, sometimes it’s not so good, but we are all human with many experiences. But I have made….I think, a life decision. I am not going to be a ‘victim’ of my past, what’s happened, has happened, I can’t change that, BUT I can send Love to that old me, tell her ‘it’s okay, your okay…..we are okay, your loved, I love you, you are never going to be alone……you/I might live alone now but you are not alone, our future is going to be wonderful, beautiful and full of love’

Talk to you again soon, just remember to love the person you are, not the one everyone else wants you to be, just smile and don’t give a shit!!